Wood burle, half burned, probably from a fire pit.
I haven’t found my beach yet this year.
The wanderlust is real.
There is a phenomena where people see faces in patterns, neutral, and man made. The pointy eyes looking to the left, Pinocchio nose, and the gasping mouth of shock and surprise, or horror. The green is unhappy with the state of the world.
As plain as this story is, does it contain anything deeper than the patterns which we perceive?
Are we open to others experience?
Can we accept the information that is plainly there, without the filter of trauma?
Check in with yourself, is this the best way to help?
Check in with your community, can I communicate in a better way? Is this coming from a place that wants things to be better?
Check in with your heart, will this be the best outcome to leave everything and everyone in a better place?
There’s hard work in being honest, open, and kind. In a time where electronic communication is easy, hatred is a quick response, and gains momentum the more you put into it. Most hate comes from a place of pain, or fear. It’s easy at a distance, especially through electronic communication. It’s hard work doing this thing face to face, but it’s worth it. You won’t lose face by trying.
And what you put into anything, comes back to you.
Check in, help yourself first. Speak open and honest. Come from a place of love, and lift all others around you.
I have a tendency to hold on too tightly, to people, to places, and to moments, stretching out all of the goodness until the final breaking point. I clench my fists until my knuckles are white and my palms have dark indentations forming from my nails digging in so deeply. I wait until the expiration…
Everyone has their patterns they want to break; feelings of guilt, revenge, anger, unworthiness, shame. To unlearn the patterns which feed ego, and take action from the heart maybe hard to do.
That’s okay as well, it hasn’t been practiced enough. There isn’t a perfect way to do things, (and those who claim there are, are only feeding their own ego) It’s called a practice for a reason. It’s okay do it wrong, to make mistakes. Know that I thank you for trying and doing. You’re doing great, keep going. I’m sorry for the hard journey ahead.
Unconditional self-forgiveness is a practice of using your heart to change those patterns you want to break. I forgive you for your actions, they come from a place of unloving conditions. Unconditional self-love, holds up all the good and bad of the self, and gives it what it needs. When you do things from the heart, it puts you on the right path. No matter what happens, or has happened, I love you.
It becomes easier the more you do it. Start with yourself to make it better, for everyone.
-An apology/love/forgiveness/thanking letter to myself